But I have found that again. Over the past two weeks I found my will to fight and I have recommitted myself to my own physical and mental health, happiness, and well-being. These have been a tough two weeks and I know the third will be even more difficult. It takes 21 days to form a habit and I'm at day 15. This time is different. I want it for ME this time. Not for someone else or not because society thinks that I should. My workout routine is in full swing, and so is my WW but I still have to keep winning in the kitchen. My biggest battle is always food. Over this past two years I have used it as crutch or a coping mechanism, but thats over now. Starting with my Jillian Michaels Detox. Its serious this time.
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Back to Me
I'm not who I used to be. Being in a constant state of unhappiness makes it so that you can't appreciate all the blessings that are apart of your life. I think I was in that place for so long I had become blinded to how great God was and how much he was doing for me. At some point I stopped caring about it all. No one to impress. Not even caring to impress myself. I let my happenings destroy my happiness. I have been going through the motions of life, making stupid decisions, and not living at all. Just existing. A shell of my former self and 30 pounds heavier. I had no will or desire to be a better me.